Of Many Things....

of Words

Ah, I haven't updated this blog for quite some time, eh?
Not that I don't have anything to say; and not that there's nothing happened either. I'm just lazy ^^;

Lately, like a year? ^^;
I'm having difficulty with words. Like when I want to describe something complicated, a concept or a scene or something, I found that instead of words, my brain keep flashing images which would deliver what I'm trying to say.

In the past, I'm good with words. I have rather wide vocabularies (in my native language off course, my English vocabularies is limited though); I used to write stories and poems. I've never find that describing anything verbally is challenging, untill now T_T

Maybe, just maybe, it's because I keep drawing and drawing. I also don't read too many novel or lengthy articles these days. All I read are articles or texts explaining things like perspective, colors, anatomy, etc....

They're not lengthy and they're there just as a "suplement". Those texts are there to make sure you understand and catch what the graphical diagrams and example images are trying to deliver.

Or even when they're not just supmlementary explanation, there's the image examples or supmlementary images/diagrams which help you to understand. Like manga or comic book.

I always found that it's easier for me to understand stuffs when it's delivered graphically, I'm a visual person. But that doesn't mean that I'm challenged when it comes for me to deliver things via words. Well, okay... right now I'm sooo not good at that.

That's why, my friends. I'm writing about this. It's like... talking your difficulties to overcome them :D

And look at the beauty of it! I can whine and complain about how I'm no longer good with words and no one can't say:
"Stop whining and complaining! Instead of complaining and whining, why don't you try to solve the problem instead, eh??"
Because whining and complaining about it is the way to solve my problem!
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!



Of Allergy and Stomach Discomfort

Since this is my personal blog, don't you think it's funny when I write something personal about me or my life in my dA journal but don't write it here?

Well, you might say, "No, it's not funny."
But I think it is.

So, I'll tell you about the freakin allergy I got.



That's a photo of my upper arm. You can see how ugly my allergy looks like. And it's itchy and spread ALL OVER MY BODY!!!!

The itch increases when I sweat.

And the weather's hot.

(So I sweat often)

I first thought that it's fungal infection (it's first started as a tiny rash and only in one area). I thought maybe I catch it from some dog on my mother's pet grooming salon, but then it spreads.

Only an amazingly unhygienic person could have fungal infection on his/her entire body. And I'm not that unhygienic.

So I went to the doctor and he immediately told me that it's an allergic reaction wo only-God-knows-what-exactly.

All I know that my house is under renovation and the allergic reaction started at that point. So my verdict is, I'm allergic with my house-renovation-dust.

For my medication, my doctor prescribed me Prednisole. He told me that it's not good for stomach and prescribe another drug (to protect my stomach for the negative effects Prednisole would gave). The result?

I have stomach discomfort everytime I wake up -_-

At least the itch is nearly gone now.

But as I write this blog entry, I'm still having stomach discomfort. It's just a few days left untill I finished up my meds; so I'll endure :D
Though it's reached the point where my stomach discomfort stays all day....



Of Trad Med vs. Digi and PS Brushes

Painting digitally is not that easy, but it's WAY easier than painting traditionally.
I wish I'm good at traditional media. I'm still learning how to tackle various trad meds.

And for fun, yesterday I made this:



I LOVE the caption :D

It was actually a doodle. I was just trying out various brushes which PS (for Photoshop) gives you all with the software and they turn out to be very good! I've just found that out yesterday ^^;

With all fancy custom brushes laying around everywhere, I didn't thought that the brushes PS gave are actually fantastic.





This entry is rather lengthy don't you think? So I guess it's enough for today :D

Of Sengoku Basara Anime and Waiting

Love it...

And it's airing in Japan I believe?
That's why I have to wait like... forever, before the new subbed episode's out.
This is what I hate about watching new anime, I got to wait for the next episode to be released.

I hate waiting...

I WANT TO SEE KASUGA SWOON OVER KENSHIN!!!
Seriously, I always laughed my ass off while watching all of her swooning scenes. And not to mention the visual hyperbolism used. The roses and the glints, LOL!
Kasuga, you're just too much.

Of Good Mood and Disorganized Blog Entry

Ah! I'm going to die young :D

I'm not yet fully recovered from my damnable illness, yet I stayed up all night just because I'm "in the mood"

Yesterday evening, I was bored and decided to doodling around. My doodle turned up to be:



It's a gift art for my commissioner and she seems to be very happy
And knowing that she's very happy makes me very happy too!
So after I uploaded it on dA, instead of sleeping (which I need), I start to work on my commission. And then, the morning came. And my instead of sleeping, I start my 30-second-drawing practice.

Talking about 30-sec-drawing; I used to dislike it. I can't enjoy it... but that's the past. Right now, I enjoy oh-so-much!
And I've found two great songs which (since I got the mp3s) I always listen as I practice those 30-sec-drawings. The two songs are "Again" by Yui and "Uso" by SID (I'm so going to download SID's entire album, their songs are so sensual in a... non provocative way :D subtle I should say, I always love subtleties!) and those two songs are the opening and ending theme for FMA: Brotherhood.

Good Lord! I love FMA! The story itself is very angsty, but the story's delivered via humorous scenes! I love it! I love not-angsty angst :D

And yes, you can call me crazy.

Oh! By the way, let me continue my story after I finished my 30-sec-drawings.

I checked my dA Inbox and found that my friend ask me about colours. So, I tried to help her by painting the colors, like this:



Nevermind the asymetry, it's color study (alesan, kekekekeke!)

After I painted the colors, I write this blog entry. Out of hype and spontaneity's! And my head is aching, coz I need to sleep...


Tah tah!

Me is Ill T_T

I got pharyngitis T_T

When people got pharyngitis, most of them might carry on working, doing their daily activities while coughing and spitting every now and then. And those people are damn lucky! Because every time I got pharyngitis, I also got fever and headache; and if I don't want to suffer even more, I have to rest. Rest as in bed rest -_-

My mom and my friend (who is an MD btw) keep telling me to change my lifestyle.
They keep saying, "Go out more often!" or "Eat more!" and "Exercise!"
I always told them that there's nothing wrong with my lifestyle. Why do I have to change it? I mean, I stay at home, working from home, never complain about food (coz I rarely eat ^^;) and I'm not an obese!

But now, my imune system is fucked ^^;

Well, what do you expect from someone who never exercise, often forgot to eat and stay inside the house all the time? Off course my imune system's fucked.

Conclusion?

Yeah, I have to change my lifestyle T_T
(But I still won't go outside often. I'm an indoor person, I like staying at home, so what??)

SWEETNESS!

Oh... I want these:




Or these:


Lyra's great! But Derwent's Artist is even better :D
All the colours! All those bloody damned COLOURS!
But they're amazingly EXPENSIVE! Got to work harder! >_<

And Derwent's color chart:



How can I not want them????

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And on a random note! I love the new FMA's openning theme, 'Again' by Yui <3
OMG! So random! LOL!

Of "Warm-up Session" and Mood

I don't know if other people experience the same thing, but usually, like 28 days in a month, I wake up from my sleep with a bad, bad mood.

I got irritated easily, feeling down in general and if I try to do something, the result will be fucked-up.

If I don't want the rest of my day spent in misery, like an engine, I need a 'warm-up session'. At this point, you might say, "So have your so-called 'warm-up session' already!"
Well, I'm having my warm-up session right now; but the problem is....
I need like, 6 hours to warm-up!
For the LOVE of GOD! 6 freaking hours! You can finished 3 decent speed-paintings in 6 hours! And yet, if I actually try to make a speed-painting in that 'warm-up session', I won't even finished 1 -_-
And no, I'm not speaking hypothetically, I've tried before, several times.

So, 6 hours is too damn long and I need something to shorten it (I don't even mind to wake-up in a bad-mood anymore, really, it feels like Christmas if I wake-up in good mood!). The problem is off course, I don't know how ^^;

But rest assured! I will find a way! To... at least, shorten that non-productive 'war-up session'

Of Rant...

Sometimes, I need to rant.

I used to be a whiny bitch, but then I found that rather than whining, which won't make any change at all, why not try to change the things I whine about?

So, I stop whining and stop complaining.

Other that that, I also found that whines and complaints of others stressed me out. I really don't like to hear people complain about stuffs. Especially, when the complaints are irrelevant and just plain... annoying.

But I do have the need of pouring out my thoughts.
I do have the need to rant.

That's why I make this blog. it's "My Ranting Place", so I can keep my sanity.